I’m trying, but I’ll admit it: I have a bad attitude this morning. I don’t want to be here. Not like people who say they don’t like hospitals or who don’t like funerals. NONE of us likes those things.

Chemo is a different. I want it because it’s working. I don’t want it because after ten days of treatments, that’s what chemo does to a person. It turns into the beast that steals your joy.

I’m trying to be joyful. I’ve even dressed for the party. Today’s true test will be to see who wins.

The morning’s score: Chemo – 1; Joyfulness – 0.

Time to fight like a BOSS.